Whatever it is, one thing this pursuit for publication has taught me is I need to ignore my pride, or at least swallow it. And I need to stop confusing it with self confidence.
In fact, the two can be diametrically opposed.
- Pride makes me embarrassed I haven't got a contract from a major house, yet.
- Pride makes me want to avoid talking to non-writer friends and family about my writing. (My writer friends totally get it.)
- Pride makes people think writing makes me angry, when really, it makes me happy.
- Self-confidence keeps me going.
- Self-confidence keeps me positive.
- Self-confidence reminds me I'll reach my goals -- some day.
L'il C on SYTYCD often makes me a little crazy with his various prognostications.
BUT this week, in amongst all his crazy talk, unnecessary alliterations and misused words, was a gem:
Lack of self-confidence is the heaviest anchor you can put on your creativity.
I'd like to amend that, slightly, and say that pride can be mighty heavy, too.